(Source: internetgurls, via nightmaringly)
(Source: internetgurls, via nightmaringly)
— A little bit , Lykki Li (via betweenblanc)
— Mayday Parade
— All Time Low
— Mayday Parade
— Jamie Sullivan (A Walk to Remember)
Insecure
Okay so right now I’m really insecure and I really need someone to lean on. I guess I shouldn’t be so dependent on others but I can’t help it. I need encouragement. I need someone to help me smile because I can’t stand up on my own. I’m like a barbie doll that cant stand up and create it’s own life without the help/support of a child’s hand of guidance. Without that guidance that barbie doll will fall to the ground and stay in that stationary position until someone helps it to move to life again ; just like me, I’m staying stationary and insecure living life without the dependence of others. Without a proper happy life.
It always seems like I screw up and people start to drift away from me. It’s either that or it’s my stupid mind telling me to start pushing them away. I get insecure about people’s closure to me and so I therefore push them away. This phobia of closure comes from the fear of trust and being let down. I hate being let down and so in order to prevent myself from getting hurt all over again, I push people away. It seems like it wasn’t my pushing away this time but something else. My friendship with 2 of my newest guy friends have been totally fucked up. One told me not to talk to him unless I become friends with his other friend in which I don’t really like. I don’t understand why that had to come in between our friendship but I’m really upset to have lost a friend now but he can’t possibly expect me to like someone that I don’t like right? That’s completely and utterly stupid. *sigh. I just wish everything could piece back together and I can smile like I did back a few days ago.
xx victoriathe